Something pops out suddenly

Finals is just one more day left and I'm going to step into my first Degree year's final paper. 

I'm fully prepared, but still, i need to scan through 1 last time in case I left out something.

Over confidence sometimes could make you missed out something important.

I always had the feeling of this, whenever i'm well prepared, Surely I'll missed out something important, and when I scan through the paper, My feeling was like "Shit, I missed out revising this topic."

(To be honest, This only happened once. Haha.)

I had a lot of dreams coming into my mind. Sometimes they said, Dreams are real if you do it, you take action on it. You strive for it. Yes, I really wanted to try.

However, trying is one thing. the way we think is also an important factor too. I found out the reason why I can't achieve my dream, because I've been too sensitive on the dreams I wanted to achieve.

The negative thoughts inside me is always locking me and blocking me from doing the things I wanted to do.

I don't like to share my feelings to the people beside me. That is why I don't have best friends, I don't have that particular someone who allows me to share out my deepest feelings.

Because I always had a mindset that, everyone in this world is not worth trusting.

(Since this blog is shared to everyone, let me say "SORRY" if I hurt you with this sentence)

I guess I should try to believe once. I should try. Someone told me before, when you share out your feelings, they might help you out if they could. 

Yes, I should share out my thoughts, my feeling, but who? 

I choose not to share it out tho, but, sometimes, I shared it out indirectly.

Which means, that particular sentence is meant to be a sad story of mine but i make it as if its a happy ending.

I always put "HAHA" at the back of every sentence I wrote, so that no one will see my weaker point.

I don't want others to worried about me because I am not worth worrying about.

I believe, I am strong enough to cope with all these sadness, because God is quietly helping me to overcome it.

How long can my depression last? I guess, it's quite soon.